a holding pattern

whenever i start something new i have a tendency to set goals. as soon as i decided i was going to blog, i analyzed why i would and what i was going to talk about. was it going to be my struggle with figuring out what i'm going to do with my life, planning my trip to europe, stresses about finding a job, opinions about current society, calculated responses, or just the ramblings and awkward situations that surround my mind? so i began to think and realized i have always had an internal struggle with articulating my thoughts on paper and when i think about it, verbally too. my biggest fear is the ridicule from my roommates! just as i write this my roommate says she can't blog because her thoughts are too "important" for the world to see. maybe the more i think about it, this blog can be an escape....okay, that's the exact moment this just turn creepy. i'll reflect more on the purpose of this and decide if i can commit. i'm kinda a big deal.